Expectations:-Root cause to every pain or An essential part of survival??

Yes, this thought came to my mind when I read the viewpoint to my topic “Chasing Ghosts”. Although I liked the reply very much ,but one particular line “Expectations always lead to sorrows" made me think about this. Expectations root cause of every pain., is it really so??

Expectations ..a very heavy word for all of us..a burden ,a negative thing..but isn’t it something without which we can’t live ..From the very childhood parents try to teach their child all the good things because they expect them to become a good human being..then after growing up everyone starts to set expectations from themselves..be it achieving some dreams, behaving in a particular way…..Nobody can make him free from this word.. Even the saints who have left social life for a better insight to the spiritual world.,are not free from expectations…. for example expectation from themselves to lead a simple life without luxury to achieve mokshya...expection from God that he will guide them..

I think at each and every moment of my life I am either meeting my own or the expectations of people around me.... then how can I leave without these? For me its almost impossible..Why we consider it such a bad thing ? As we all have seen every thing has its own positive as well as negative side…it also has some .We must learn not to expect too much from anyone.. making our expectations burden on them. Although I have learnt to manage my expectations from myself as well as from others,there is still one question unanswered…..

Is there a life without expectation??

~Ani~

Dard

Dard sehne ki had to banati hun ,
us had se gujar jati hun
Jine ki aarajo main ,kai maut mar jati hun

waqt karchala hai sitam pe sitam..
khud ko sametne ki chah me aur bhi bikhar jati hun
Jine ki aarjoo me....

saye se bhi na kabhi chaunkti thi me
aajkal aaine me khud ko dekhun to darr jati hun
Jine ki aarjoo me....

~Ani~

Talash

Us sakhs ko main shamo sehar dhudti hun
Jo aankhon se ruh ko chun jaye woh najar dhundti hun

kisi rah par miljaye woh mujhe chalte chalte
Zindagi ka ek aisa safar dhundti hun...

uska na milna todta hai mere umeed ko har baar magar
main har naumeed ko karke beasar dhundti hun..

maine use chaha nahi uski ibadat ki hai
kya kahun kisi insaan ko dhundti hun yah apna khuda dhundti hun

~Ani~

CHASING SHADOWS

In my childhood days the world was is full of love and affection. I had a notion that people around really love us and we should do the same. But as I grew up everything started changing. People, their love, affection, attitude… almost everything. It was just like heavy rains in winter season for me. I know it can happen but what if you find rain in each and every day of the winter season. You will assume that there might be something wrong, probably a cyclone or kind of something.. But as I was quite poor in science I could not detect it earlier and it hit my life drastically.
post cyclone period I found myself all alone in a graveyard, not of people but of their love, affection.or in other terms it was the graveyard of humanity. I always believed that circumstances may affect your life but it cannot completely change you. So when I saw people changing around me, I was stunned.

Still I tried, tried my best to manage the situation hoping that may be someday I will recoup the old world and everything will be alright. But I was wrong, how couldn’t I realize that the time that has gone will never come again. My belief was so wrong. Just one seizure changed people around me totally. Soon I realized that the devil of that cyclone is coming towards me. It wanted to take away all the good things from me. But I did not want to surrender..so I started running ,running aimlessly ..to find a better place where I can hide myself ..to hide within the good people ..assuming may be the devil will back out seeing some positive force. ...he wont dare to proceed towards me. But I didn’t find a place till now..and …..
I am running ..Still running…

~Ani~

A Tribute To My Friends

Friend...a character chosen by us for sharing some thoughts, getting some guidance and making our time pass in a better way through some chit-chats. But I never choose my friends. rather they just suddenly appear in different phases of my life as God's wonderful surprise gifts. Dad always told ,pray to God to be with you always in a physical form, be with you as a friend. and I made this prayer a practice. Today I have completed some good as well as bad phases of my life, and when I look back ,I am glad that dad advised me such a wonderful thing........

I always failed to define the term friendship .Whenever anyone asked me what friendship means to me., my reply was a straight and simple one. It starts with F and ends with P. It doesn't have limitations and certainly has some boundries..some prohibited areas which we need not go wondering as its precious and very personal to them. God has blessed me with a wonderful set of friends with whom I dare to be myself(although I agree that being an original piece. I have never pretended in front of anyone at the same time I have never disclose my weaknesses to all acquaintances)all r very unique in their own sense but they all have some things in common. a beautiful soul. caring heart ,and a supporting hand..

My friends never stopped or comforted me when I cried rather they let me shed my tears saying it will relieve my pain…,never advised me when I made mistakes. rather they promised to be in my side while I face the consequences and learn from it ,they never praised me for some achievements rather they made me feel there r a lot of more things to achieve ,so I have to work harder. They never console me on my failure, rather look straight in my eyes making me believe that I can SURVIVE..SURVIVE under any circumstances and can come out as a winner. Friends who taught me that they will be always there with me but I must learn how to stand alone.

Friends ..Gods wonderful gift ..I know words r not enough and the things you all have done for me cannot be. expressed in words. I owe you all a lot. EVEN IF I HAVE LEARNT HOW TO STAND ALONE ITS GREAT TO HAVE YOU ALL BY MY SIDE. Thanks for being in my life...and inspiring me and most of all making me believe that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

~Ani~

Maasum Hasi

Tumne dekha hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi??

Jo jindagi ke palon ko yaadgar banati hai

Kya tumne dekha hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi??

Jise dekhkar baharein bhi kihilkhilati hai

Un nahe nahne kadmom ko chalna sikhana

Apne bachon ke liye hazaron sapne sajana

Woh kahani ke bahane achi batein baytana..

Galti pe ankhe dikhakar phir chupke se muskurana..

Tumne dekha hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi??

Jo apne sote hue bache ko dekh maa ke chere pe sukun se ubhar aati hai

Kya tumne dekha hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi??

joh hame pyar ke riste ka mool samjhati hai

Apni to har baat tha use hi baatana

Jab woh tha to kitna aasaan tha muskilon se takrana

Juda rehkar bhi ek pal ke liye usse na bhulana

Yaad aata hai sabko apni dosti ka zamana.

Tumne dekha hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi??

Jo ek bichde hue dost ke miljane se najron me chamka jati hai

Kya tumne dekha hai kabhi woh masum si hansi?

Jo purani yaadon ko sunehera kar jaati hai

Choti choti batoon pe ek duje ko satana

Jhot mut ka roothna karke koi bahana

Bada hasin hota hai woh chahat ka zamana

Uski to har ada kar deta hai deewana

Tumne dekh hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi?

Jisko dil main liye ek ladki kai khwab sajati hai

Kya tumne dekha hai kabhi woh maasum si hansi??

Jo kisi ke dil main pyar ke deep jalati hai..

Gar dekha ho kahin woh maasum si hansi.

to mere dost mujhpe ek ehsaan kar jana

zindagi main jab bhi kisi se milo

use ek maasum hansi ka taufa de aana

~Ani~

Umeed

Umeed phir bhi hai is bedard jamane se

Jo chot pahunchata hai mujhe har ek bahne se

Kya samjhega koi yeh phasana sunane se

Ke dard kum nahin hota askon ko bahane se..

Jo tut raha hai mere sapno ka mahal hai

Mere rab tu bata kyon har bar tut ta mera dil hai

Koi gair hota to sikayat kar bhi leti

Par apnon se to iltaja karna bhi muskil hai

Ke sukun is dil ko to na aayega apnon pe elzaam lagane se..

Sab khus rahein sada yeh dua karti hun

Kisiki khusi ko meri najar na lagjaye isiliye darti hun

Nasib yeh mera hai jamane ki khata kya hai

Ke nasib to badla nahin ja sakta hathon ki lakeeron ko mitane se..

Jine ki aas liye jiti hun,ek ajab si pyas liya jiti hun

Sayad miljaye mujhe is dard ki dawa,uski talsh liye jiti hun

Ke jina koi chod to nahin deta ek do thokar khane se...

~Ani~