Iss Tarah Sham ko tere Kabil bana diya

Mehfil sajane ke liye chand ko apna Dil Bana diya

Mere pyar ko kabhi na rukne wala samander

Tere pyar ko usse chumta hua sahil bana diya

P.S. -Hav A Close look At the pic..one of its kind and it came naturally :)

Meri Pehchan

Sawaan ki bundoon me hun
Aur dharti ke pyaas me bhi hun
Khud ko kahin khoyi bhi nahin magar
Khud ke talaash me bhi hun

Aasmaan jaise ashaon ki uncahiyon me hun
sagar ki tarah dard ki gehrayion me bhi hun
Khusion ki bheed me shamil rehti hun harwaqt
aur apni udasi bhari tanhayion me bhi hun

me hun hawaoon ki beichaini me
maa ke aanchal ke sukun me bhi hun
has ke sab kuch lutane ki jazbe me shamil paoge tum mujhe
to kahin kuch hasil karne ki junon me bhi hun

chand ke shhetal chaya me hun
Suraj ke tej prakash me bhi hun
kahin aankhon se bikhre hue mooti ke namak me
to kahin hasi se chalke hue meethas me bhi hun

Sawaan ki bundoon me hun
Aur dharti ke pyaas me bhi hun
Khud ko kahin khoyi bhi nahin magar
Khud ke talaash me bhi hun
~Ani

This time a funny story from my childhood

Its long back .. My Mom used to get angry if we take any snacks just after lunch. That day Mom went to Uncle’s house in the afternoon to help aunty in some work. Bro and me were quite happy as there was a big half watermelon kept in freeze and we had a golden opportunity to eat some of that.
We successfully completed our plan..cut the watermelon in such a way that mom cant recognize that we have done something to it. Then we realized the major problem if we throw the peel in the dustbin at home Mom will see. So we decided that I would go out and throw those outside.

Our house was on first floor. Bro stood in the balcony and I came down . I saw a cattle nearby and I went nearby and fed the peels to it one by one.Then suddenly Bro shouted
ANIIIIIIIIIIIIII.. I looked up ..he just ran into the house took a wicket..and ran towards me ..

I was just trying to understand what’s happening a cow pulled me up by her horns and threw me in the air..
I would have been in heaven now if Bro wouldn’t be there at that time.

The story ends here..
All these years I thought the cow hurted me bcos I was feeding the cattle only and not giving anything to it..but..One friend of mine told me the real reason..or we can say moral of the story....

ALL MOMS ARE SAME...It did not hurt me bcos i was feeding the cattle only but bcos i was feeding it at wrong time ..snacks are not allowed just after lunch ;)

25 Mins Bus Journey...

It was a busy Saturday evening . I was coming from my class by BMTC bus. As usual the bus was fully packed and lot of people including me were struggling hard to get a place where they can stand properly. A girl standing in my right side was sobbing. As it’s a tendency of human being to analyze what’s going on by seeing a picture..I started creating my own stories.. Bad result, fight with a friend, not feeling well…etc…

Then she made a call. And I could hear some conversation..(Which was not like intending to hear but as I have already told the bus was full and she is very near to me..by default some words made way to my ears.) She was telling someone to meet her. Telling will be an understatement. She was literally requesting someone to meet her urgently.

Then I made my conclusion....what else it can be ..ofcurse a fight with boy friend.

But somehow I was feeling bad as she was crying. I felt like asking..then stopped myself… Something echoed in my mind “ Ani you should not poke your nose in others business.” There was a fight going on between my mind and heart. Heart was in favor of giving a try and asking her whats the matter and mind. as always No ..

Then finally my heart conquered I took a step forward. And told her “you are looking very worried..can I do something for you ..Don’t worry everything will be alright..I will pray for you.”

Then she told me her story. The story that made me feel so guilty of my previous thoughts…. the story which reminded me of the pain I have gone through one year back..

She told her father met with an accident two days back and had injuries in hand .
He has gone through an operation. Doctor informed the operation was successful in the morning. Her mother was giving sweets to inmates.
And in the afternoon the Dr. called her and said your father has developed some problem in the hand ..we have to observe for 24 hrs .Its getting poisionous ..if the situation don’t improve ..we have to cut his hand.

She couldn’t tell her mother at that time. She is the elder one and her younger brother is too small to understand these things. She wanted to talk to someone so was calling one of her cousin .She couldn’t tell him the thing over phone ,he not being aware of the situation ,was saying that he ‘s too busy so can’t come.

I stood there for 2 mins ....stunned…speechless
Feeling the pain of the moment when I was informed Dad is not among us.And the first thing that came to my mind is No GOD ,Please help her.

Then I said her ..you wanna hug me( Thanks to Munna Bhai MBBS….that jadu ki jhappi funda always worked for me ..so I was sure it will work for her also)..she hugged me and cried for some moments..I could tell her just one line…will pray for you .Don’t worry God is there.

That day I Thanked God from the core of my heart because at the right time he gave me the courage to take that step.. I was so wrong about my first conclusion...

P.S.—I was very reluctant to share this experience because I feel we should not tell what we have done for others. So please don’t make any judgment about me .The way I made my conclusion at that time made me feel ashamed of myself.
The one and only reason for sharing this this experience with you all is ..
IF AT ANY POINT OF LIFE YOU COME ACCROSS A SITUATION LIKE THIS YOU WILL REMEMBER THIS INCIDENT AND NOT FEEL HESITANT TO ASK
IF YOU CAN HELP.

~Ani

this one was written by me ..

Dard ki panahon me gujarte hein jindagi
yeh na pucho bigadte hein yah sawartein hein jindagi
kehte hein tapkar sona aur nikhar aata hai
ham dard ki dhoop me nikahrte hein jindagi

thn my friend suggested some change
Dard ki panah me gujar jaati hain jindagi
yeh na pucho bigadti hai ya sawar hai jindagi
kehtein hein tapkar sona aur nikhar aata hai
yahan dard ki dhoop me nikar aati hai jindagi

just look the difference in the way we see it..i felt mine is mixed with anger and the second one is very gentle..thanks a lot to my friend who helped me to see this aspect of the poetry

The Sole reason of my existence.......

Life has been a great teacher to me.Its always in hard way you learn the best lessons. My life has always been an ordinary one .I never dreamed for best things of life but yes I believed I deserve to be treated well.
Some days back I have gone through a very difficult situation . A situation where I felt that my existence does not matter .I don’t know how people behave like you are a ghost and you don’t exist at all even though you are standing right in front of them. And your pain doubles when you couldn't find out the reason for this behaviour. 'Pain' my childhood friend never left me alone for a moment. And I also made it my best friend and turned it to my advantage by being stronger. But that time it was unbearable , for the first time in my life I asked God..why ?? Why I am here? What’s I am doing between these people for whom I am just a topic of discussion? Who feel my presence only when they need something from me?

God ..being my best friend answered me.. u are alive the one and only reason that can give justification of your existence is I want you to …I love you ..is n’t it the best reason ?

That time I came to know about the most wonderful thing ...................

The sole reason of my existence is God wants me to…and I am glad he really does :)

Kripa

Mujhpe bas itni kripa karna hey Shyam
ke me teri joagn ban jaun
Radha ki tarah tere pyaar me khoun
Meera jaise tumhare gun gaun

Har rup me mujhe bas tum milo
me har rup me bas tumko cahhun
Bas yahi khwaish rahe dil me k
tumhari cahrnon mein me thodi jagah paun

Mujhpe bas itni kripa karna hey Shyam
ke me teri jogan ban jaun
Mujhme mujhse kuch bhi na rahe
Me tum.me bilin ho jaun